[TW] they save my morning time!

hey guys,

Sorry that I havent updated my blog for weeks, you know there's nothing to share or talk about when you are at home all the time.....I had my worst morning today that i was woken up by noises agian!! But this time, they're not from pumping machines like days ago or from drill hole machines in Block B1 which were temporary and can be ignored if i can tolerate it. The noises were from the people who dance in the avenue right next to my house. As you know, the morning exercise, especially dancing, is with music (the kind of music that neither you nor I will listen to) and usually takes hours. Being woken up early in the morning is different from waking up early by oneself, well, at least, i would not wake up with anger and curse in the morning for the latter.

Anyway, I did had the feeling to run over there to yell at them and request them to turn that down immediately!!! Thank god that my dad & Jason's words hold me back or I might be on the headline news as a psycho.

he says:
'When I plan a vacation, I usually don’t look to cities. I want country settings. I want to see the edge of the Earth. I want to feel closer to the stars with more access to those that fall; where talking with the omnipresent feels like I’m on a direct line. If my eyes can’t be zooming out hundreds of miles over open water or from a mountain pass, I want them to be set on macro exploring a thick and twisted jungle floor. In my journey I look for a few thrills now and then. Something to write home about.

In those moments I like to feel like Indiana Jones hanging over a ledge, being recklessly whisked away down a sorted highway in India, or lifted off the ground in a single prop plane in a spirited getaway over a grassy, near forgotten runway. In other moments, apart from the adventure, I prefer the kind of stillness that only nature can offer. Put me in places where the wind against my skin is all that powers my appreciating sighs - to hum, to buzz with delight. My lungs, like the rest of my being, hang light, regenerating perhaps, or resting at least, from its heavier duty sustaining life in the big cities.' (excerpted from Jason Mraz: Rant for 1123@ facebook)

What he said really save my morning and I started to reflect on myself, is that something wrong with me or them? or none of us are wrong and that's just how the world works day after day, months after months! How can I really be a generous, open-minded (yeah...i know Carol hates this word but i gotta say it here) and positive person to see this big world if i cannot stop mourning my unsuccessful job hunting and blame on others these two months since I am back here. Although that's really frustrating, the old-fashioned line ----- life has to move on & there're people out there have the similar situation. It's terrible to be an arrogant person to say that but I am not that bad, actually I am good, just not the right time for me & others who have the same situation. 

So glad that I live in the place where I can still see the mountains far away, watch sunrise and sunset, not places that can only see those tall, modern but ugly commercial buildings.

(this is really not me!!! i am too into Gossip Girl.)