[my life] A bomb in mind

I-have considered myself as a lucky perpon who knows what to do,
where the aims are and is positive to life. "The decision of
choosing to study education programme is never a mistake but a
turning point in life." That is what I always thought; therefore,
every time when friends or colleagues complained about the
difficulties,pressure and depression they had during being
interns/practice teachers(whatever they called), I took those
emotion and works as a trial to assay my ability. 'Coz only the
ones who passed it will be strong to face the future. Now that exams about to be a
formal teacher or not were over; however, a great stress is
followed- expectation from parents. I dare not to tell them that
preparing to go abroad is my prime choice now. Although it is also
important to seize the chance to be a substitute teacher,
especially the teacher called me the other day, that is
nonessential for me. All I want at this moment is to get a high
score in ielts then to upgrade myself. Therefore, please put it
into an end and let me have a sound dream.