[York] knock on my head as hard as you can, plz

I cannot stand it! Although i got  lots of assignments and
essay waiting for me, I had to write the blog to express my
feelings~ try to find a way out....







Actually, i did not have a good time during these days. The only
thing that will cheer me up is that Carol moved in on Sat. She is
one of my best friends here in the UK. I am really happy and glad
that she can be my neighbours so that I can find someone when I am
depressed or bored. Before this, I often chatted with her through
MSN or internal line or go to find Lefteris(it's not really good to
bother him all the time though). And now, we are in the same block
and it will be easier for us to find each other when we need sth or
have some problems--to support each other is what we needed
here.







Since Thurs., my days went wrong completely. Firstly, my greek
friend said it's the end of our communication because I refused to
join the party of their society. And the reason for me not to go
was I had to hand in my assignment of ESOL on Fri. Obviously, it
was not acceptable by him. Later on, I cut my finger (quite stupid)
when I was trying to open the lid of one iron bowl. Then, Carol and
I received a shocking news which was supposed to come out from our
mouth.....There's an perfect expression about this in
Chinese:屋漏偏逢連夜雨( and the Eng. version....?) I was in a bad mood
then. Surprisingly, I was informed to hand in a 1000 words essay on
this Fri, (21/11). Gosh~~~~ I thought it would be hard to write up
to 1000 words, however, later I found that it's easy to
achieve 1000 words. The most difficult part is how to keep the word
amount and still have the reasonable evidence and sentences. Is
this also the process of writing an essay? Anyway, I should try to
get to 1000 and then think about the later question
afterwards.







I have been reflected on myself recently. Am I the one with
narrow-sighted? Am I childish? I am too stupid to know the
answers. Although I do not think myself childish and
narrow-sighted, it is obvious that I am...well at least what others
think of me. Am I? It's our culture to be polite and indirect in
saying critiques or to reject others. Is that bad? I mean can't I
keep part of my culture even I am in a foreign country? It's
important and good that we should learn the differences of western
culture and to compare it with ours. But it is
not necessary that I have to accept all of them and  to
talk, act, even think like a westener. It's unfair to blame me like
that since you do not know our culture. I am not the one to play my
own game, you are.